why does this keep happening? the next time it happens, i might not be able to take it like how i used to.

dont know abt you, but runny nose can really make me numb towards everything. i dont feel hungry which is good cos i wont be feeding myself with god knows what, BUT i dont feel full even if i eat more than usual. thats sssooo weird. its going away now tho. im getting cough instead. ugh phlegm! there goes my hope in recovering by wed.

i need good yummy sweets or snacks to accompay me this and next week. those kind that wont have me guilty consuming them, yet able to keep me contended while mugging. i wonder if they exist.

i should really, ugh idk. this sucks really. EVERYTHING. i hate myself for being such a sad person. i hate myself for holding on to such a shitty life. why wont anything get better.