its always harder doing it, then saying that you will. even tho you feel the strong urge at that moment that yes, you're determined that this is what you're going for, its never easy carrying it out. im a weakling. yes, now i know.

suddenly, i miss everything in the past.
when i was fooling around with ql during sec 1&2,
when i was always having phoebe with me,
when i was always having fun in sr,
when i was always having laughing in the sac.

and, just everything.
i dont wna be stuck here. can we fast forward, and skip the shitty things im about to face/facing.
yknow, its usually the lil things that make you miss them so much and when they're over, then you come regretting not cherishing them at the beginning.

why why why am i always not prepared for tests/exams. its common test and ive not started my revision. okay, whatever i get ltr, is i deserve it one. so, stop blaming life sabrina.

i hope you'll make the right choice, thats the best for you. just rmb, the key is working hard yea (: damn, im not practicing what i preach.