times like these, i wished my phone wont work. that i cant on my phone so it makes it easier in forcing myself to not contact you so that i wont "think to much" and getting frustrated. i think im not cut out for a lifestyle like this. maybe i made that promise a lil too soon. tho the outcome was this, i swear im not regretting asking you to take this path, cos its the best for you.

am i not understanding enough.

sr olympics today. it was okay, but the 30 x 200m, i wasnt happy with myself for not catching up. uggghh. like so many times on the field when i could have dived and touch the person. i get the exact same sucky feeling after running. oohh weellll. wed match with rj - ): sensed the mood of everyone during warm up alr. and the darn hot weather made everything worse. at the end of everything tears were swelling up in my eyes but i dare not let it fall. didnt end the way we wanted. i'll definitely miss everything. esp the encouragements we give each other, cos they really do wonders (:

am so upset today that im not going to eat and doing everything that wont make ppl happy. not that you'll care anyways.

no.2 dear i've linked yooouuuuu (: