you're not worth these tears.

for the past two nights, i've been grieving over it again and...
& for the past two nights, i had horrible nightmares. they really felt REAL, like i was living it. ive never felt so involved in a dream before. the fear was.. indescribable.

do i see a bridge between these two?

i quit my F21 job a few days ago. freedom from: those yalam(s), pain and sore in my feet, exhaustion. and say hello to the new "as-free-as-bird-and-flowing-water" me. LOL. well, i decided to cos i thought i had a back up job BUT WELL APPARENTLY NOT. SHITZZ TTM COS NOW I HAVE NO INCOME. ): ): nevermind for this month, its gna end anw and i have catching up to do.

i do have photos to bring colour to this pink and grey space but im probably lazy. okay, i AM lazy. ltr's gna be a busy day. when i mean busy, it means i have things to keep my mind occupied and not allowing myself to be too susceptible to it.

rmb how i once said in one of my entry that i hope at the end of this year, i can look back and be way more satisfied with everything? a very good example of wishful thinking.