Good Things Never Last

i dont really allow myself to maintain a positive mindset everyday anymore cos the more I feel that things are finally changing for the better, the more they elude me. its getting very mentally exhausting to try holding on to sth non tangible. im now a pessimist - not by choice.

im indeed tired, but physically in this context. cos my last off day was FRIDAY. six consecutive days! its so draining and i can feel my body breaking down silently. at work, i opened myself to many many things which left me.. speechless. in a good and bad way. i really feel like quitting cos of unspeakable reasons. whats holding me back tho is the awesome bunch of friends i made there. i cant say that EVERYONE is great, but if i were to generalise, then i'd say they are the incentive for me to go to work. i just met someone whom i thought is worth mentioning here. i really feel that shes sincere abt her friendliness and generosity. i dont think anyone is like her. just a couple of days ago, she bought snacks after work and they were costly, like 7bucks for a churro and pretzel! yknow how hungry we always get after work? we treat food like longevity pills. but she willingly shared it with all of us and even said that they were given for free so that the rest would eat it. i doubt she reads this but i still hope she knows that shes really nice and dont stop being the way she is. that being said, i did come across nasty incidents which i wont be mentioning hehe. i have a handful of pictures to post here - me clad in ugly uniform but surrounded by nice people who go thru lotsa perspiration w me :)