Freeeeeeeedom

this feels good cos i no longer have to wake up to the noisy alarm clock mummy set for me almost every morning. i can paint my nails AGAIN!! i miss those colourful nails. gone were the days when my nails were never not painted and it has resulted into yellow fugly fingertips. wheeee and i have the sudden urge to get pink extensions again :D

no doubt im over the moon.. but i will miss there, somehow. just the friends i met la, and nth more than that. i almost wna cry when i said bye to alice! sometimes i really wonder whats wrong w me.

and now im worried abt not getting enough sleep.. got woken up by my sis' flute. i think shes going for an audition in some top jc and hopefully get a place there. in other words, shes trying out for dsa. i wish her all the best. sometimes i think that being young, your parents play a big part in building up your future. and its always good to have older siblings to advice you on the decisions you make. when i was young, cca was never a priority to my mum. she'd rather me not have ANY activites, or take part in some slack around cca which clearly made schooling a bore and made me a useless, talentless student. but alicia, she's lucky i guess. if it werent for bro and i, my mum would have put her into art club and she would not have gotten to today. as time goes by, i become more certain that im a forgotten kid at home and i cannot accomplish anything good.

oh no, the emo-ness at the end of the post was really unintentional.