:(

today i came home w a heavy heart. feels like there's nothing for me to look forward in life and it'll just be plain studying all the way. cos my cousins went back to ny this morning and i miss them! rachel is like 12 but you need to add a few years to that in terms of maturity as compared to typical 12 year old kids in singapore. we can just talk and talk like how i talk w my friends that kind. and i think its the culture there or what, but shes always so encouraging and sincere about her compliments. sometimes shes kinda messy but im neat so its ok! haha. i hope my dad sticks to his promise abt paying for my trip to ny next year during my hols so that i can visit them and join them in their road trip to canada/france i cant rmb. but i will be terrified taking the plane ALONE so i hope we go as a family! which is highly impossible :(

school started for a week and i realised i have developed an unhealthy fear for studies. we have not even finished one chapter on the first day of school and i came home and cried when revising for my work?? i am terribly afraid of not doing well and how my uni life is turning out to be definitely isnt helping this stress im facing. i know i sound stupid. how help me.

anw today after lecture i met up w yanning for lunch and we should totally do it more cos i had a good time chatting w her! :)

i will go and study POA now. totally new to this topic and i really envy those people who took POA in sec sch cos i bet lecture was a breeze for them this morning. byebyeeee.