ytd night i typed a chunk of wordy + quite emo post but didnt end up publishing it.. phew. dont wna sound like im seeking attention/sympathy which im actually not but everyone is entitled to their own opinions, i realised.

OKAY. last night the cousins finally reached singapore and the level of excitment fell way below expectations. cos, we kinda drift apart :( my lil girly cousin is now not so girly anymore!! sorry for stereotyping, but i thought all ny teenagers-to-be girls will be more like.. idk, vain?? not that i thought she'd become bitchy that sort but maybe those kind that enjoys shopping, dressing up.. along that line la. now im not sure how im gna entertain her anymore. but i hope we get closer tho this time they'll be staying for only a week. plus, they're putting up at a hotel instead, unlike in the past, when they slept in my bro's room and my cousin and i stayed up till so late in the night playing, then waking up in the morning and have fun all over again. i miss good old times :(

tmr dinner with almost all of my paternal relatives, its like a mega reunion cos my relatives are all over the world and its always seeing different aunts/uncles one at a time, never all at once. then, sat bbq at me house! sun im gna have my first professional photograph taken hahaha. my aunt figure out that we should take this opportunity to have a family photo taken. sounds exciting but when i look forward to something, idk why the level of energy dies down in the end. mon is the start of sch and im asking myself should i feel excited? whats holding me back apart from the studies stress im soon to face and the fear of not being able to do well is that piano exam is on tues. omg so much things happenning at once for me to handle.

a weird and no link last sentence for this post: i love my family :)