i have so much to say. so much thoughts in my head i just dont know how and where to start. so pardon me if i make a sudden switch in topic, im just gna type wtv that comes to my mind first. so anw, people around me idk, they seem to be living a more fulfilling life than mine. like im sure most of you have a period in your life, maybe a few years, where you feel that it is the most memorable, unforgettable experience. but if you ask me whats mine, i'd give you an empty stare. cos i dont have. my jc life wasnt fantastic, uni.. much worse. i feel so stupid, not knowing how to make my stand clear, for being easily swayed by my emotions and not knowing how to say no firmly. i regret knowing you and as much as i want to post a defaming entry about everything, i just would not bcos it would be inhumane. i dont do things half heartedly, so it will be real nasty. be thankful i still have a tinge of sympathy in me. you know who you are, and my close friends know too. do you think our life was planned even before we were born? bcos there are things that happened which you simply cant explain. either sheer luck, a twist of fate, or just plain u n l u c k y. to simply put it across, i think we are born in a package. like premium hampers, mediocre ones or those crappy kinds. like how i have to have scoliosis, bunny tooth, button nose.. i hope i dont sound superficial but that's cos i dont wish to go deeper into it. idk what lies ahead of me. but i hope its not disappointing cos i dont want to live my whole life like a book with blank pages.