funshion keeps screwing up so i cant watch vampire dairies :( but just to kill some time before work, i decided to try watching the new police drama on channel 8. wrong move cos its a damn draggy show. before work sian, during also sian, no work also sian, dont work even more sian cos will result in negative cashflow. plus i have the knack in making myself ten times more miserable seriously. my heart just cant open up, trust and freaking chill. its like suffering from anorexia. you wish very hard to get out of it but you just cant.