i can almost see it, the dream im dreaming, but there's a voice in my head saying "you'll never reach it". every step i'm taking, every move i make feels lost with no direction. my faith is shaking.

why is it so difficult. i really tried turning over a new leaf but everything just WONT help make it happen. WHY IS PROBABILITY SO ANNOYING. i spent 2 hrs plus on 3 retarded questions. im super disappointed and depressed. damn damn damn if my stupidity carries on im not going anywhere far. ugggggghhhhhh.

just everything la. shit you life. you're such a bitch.
but, the happiness i felt ytd was indescribable (: